love/lʌv/ Show Spelled [luhv] noun, verb, loved, lov·ing.
As if dictionary.com could possibly sum up the feelings associated with that tiny little 4 letter word, I thought I'd humor you all and post the definition anyway. So...here we are, seems like ages since I've been someone's girlfriend, and just as long since I've felt truly adored by someone who was special to me. He is truly one of my best friends... we spent a year getting to know each other as friends, helping each other through hard times, growing comfortable with each other, and truly laying a foundation for the relationship we now find ourselves in. It took me by surprise... one day it hit me like a ton of bricks, and I could no longer fight the feelings that had been growing on me since the day I met Rudy Sanchez. I'm not sure why I couldn't let myself be with him when we first met...he was certainly ready to make me his, and we both could have avoided many of the heartbreaks we endured along the way if it had started then, but I don't think it would be as strong as it is for waiting. He went from being my movies & cuddling on the couch buddy, to my 'big brother' type of friend, to best friend and shoulder I cried on through everything, to my boyfriend!
The best part, and reason I wanted to share this with what (probably non-existent) readers I have left is for this reason: he's a good man, with a good heart, and doesn't expect me to be perfect. There have even been moments when I cried because of Ryan and he just held me and told me it was okay to feel those emotions, and that no matter what he'd be there for me. He values family, and is very close with his family and WANTS to be close to mine! He works hard, and has earned everything he has...and to say the very least - I'm considering myself very blessed that he was patient enough to be my friend for a year while I stopped being an idiot and appreciated what love was right in front of me, rather than chase love that was never meant to be chased.
If he ever reads this I'm sure I'll blush a bright red shade...but everything is true, he's amazing & I truly thank God for putting a good man in my life.
All my love,